Everything you said Clarity! ^^^^^
It hasn't been 2 years since I understood that I will die. So much has happened during that time. My sister died 9 months ago. I wake up and I think she is not here anymore to experience this beautiful day. I will never see her again. Her husband still thinks he will see her in the JW belief of a resurrection back to earth. The latest Watchtower of will you be able to marry your loved one again... Is so Watch- tarded !
I so want to have grandchildren. It makes me think what was the point of living? Of the agony? Of the struggle if I do not? To me the point of living means children and grandchildren and love and happiness and family. When you do not have those things, what do you have?
I am sorry for the young 20 year old boy who died. Watch Tower lied to his family and WT lies for their own gains. He is dead and gone.
Everything dies. I am happier to know the real truth. I can take it. It was hard, but not impossible to accept.
I try hard now, not to waste what precious time, counting down, that I have. As a person thinking I was going to live forever, all my desires were put on hold for what I was brainwashed to believe was a higher and nobler cause. Wrong, and I have to live with that.
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